Growing Edges
alexa lopezArchive for Random
To Laugh at (with) Oneself
I don’t know what I would do without a sense of humor about myself.
Oh, wait. Yes I do. I would do things like…well, like take everything personally.
I would probably also second guess everyone else’s motives for laughing around me. I would assume that people are laughing at me. I would believe that everyone thinks I’m a fool and a loser. I would convince myself that people — friends included — make it their purpose to crap on my day.
I would get along with nobody.
Because if I don’t laugh at myself, then nobody else is allowed to laugh at me. That’s how it goes, right?
I don’t know whether it is possible to “learn” a sense of humor about onself. I just know that if I couldn’t laugh at myself — including laughing with others when I’ve accidentally done something funny — I’d be friendless.
Because I’d be sour.
A party pooper.
This I know about me: I am a goofball, and sometimes clueless; I make careless mistakes and I sometimes don’t get the obvious jokes. For instance, I wore camouflage pants to work one day, and as he walked toward me, the Head Dude (they don’t like to be called our “bosses”) said, “Oh no! I can’t see anything but a torso!”
“What?” I asked, totally confused about what he was talking about.
“You’re wearing camouflage pants,” he said in passing.
Oh…Duh! Laughter. I shook my head as I walked on. How’d I miss that?
I wish I were funnier, quick-witted like my husband or my daughters, or like my sister Jole’, or my friend Cathy at church; I do a lot of funny things accidentally, but on purpose — not so much.
Instead, I am funny in my head.
A sense of humor is part of the art of leadership, of getting along with people, of getting things done. – Dwight D. Eisenhower
© Alexa Lopez, 2009
How Does One Get There?
Tell me, please, how one gets to the place where crying an ocean of tears is just one blink away — without any obvious cause?
How is it that meditating on all things good, and seeing the positive side of whatever, can be a trail that leads to a desolate clearing that seems laden with sorrow?
It is so contrary. So wrong.
What is up with that?
How does sadness loom randomly, and oppress so overwhelmingly?
© 2009, Alexa Lopez


